Christmas Eve

Christmas is tomorrow. It's been nice just hanging out with family. I got to see my dads biological mother whom I've only met twice. It was nice, she was nice. This break from school has made me feel so much better. I got a laptop, which is really awesome. I love it. I'm pretty content with life at the moment. Which is a really good thing for me. I'll tell you how Christmas goes.

Hey guys,

I don't really know how to explain my situation. I think I was on the verge of figuring out something big last night. Life is weird, I don't know who I am or who I'm supposed to be anymore. Or who I want to be for that matter. It's winter break and I am feeling good about not having homework. Maybe something good will happen this break. I would like that.

Wishes

I wish there were a girl that liked me.

Drats

Today started out fine. I hung out with my friend Luke that I don't see much anymore. We have been friends since birth literally. He is the only person that I can truly say that about. Good guy. We have a lot of memories as kids. Man I miss those days. I wish I could re-live them. After that my mom picked me up and it all went downhill from there. We went Christmas shopping because I wanted to get some presents for everyone. Before going I had to pick up my backpack from my dads because I left it there. So I go get that, when I'm leaving my dads house, he pulls up and has a woman with him, I didn't mind my dad being with a woman of course, but she seemed to feel really akward because of it and it was really weird. Even though I tried to make it look like it was fine, I feel like I had a sad look on my face, which probably made her feel more akward. I don't even think I am spelling akward right, but you get what I'm saying. While I'm typing this I feel like I have this very Catcher in the Rye style. It's rather weird. An example of how weird I feel. Weird. I feel really weird. Well after my dads we head on over to Fashion Square mall. Then we decide its too crowded and we go to Sam Ash so I can get presents from there for people. The whole time I was there I couldn't get any of the employees attention to buy things and when I did I was really quiet and they couldn't hear me so I had to repeat everything about 10 times. That sucked. I get done there, get to the car, and I just want to get home so I can read and stay in my room, away from everyone. Well I had 3 cups of coffee for breakfast, and two cups of hot tea. So add that up with sugar in the tea and coffee and I felt pretty shitty. I just felt shitty. I got home, was really cold, didn't talk to anyone and just went to my bed and slept for about 3 hours. Woke up, and then had nothing to do. I didn't feel like doing anything. Well dinner was here and we had pizza. I wasn't that hungry, I ate a little. And retreated to my quarters glad to get away from my stepdad and mom. I kind of hate it at my moms. I feel horrible saying that, because if my mom ever saw that she would probably cry. I just can't stand my stepdad. He gets on my nerves. Then I watched a movie with them. I didn't want to. I wanted to watch it by myself. It was Hancock. It was a horrible movie. One of the worst I have seen. Disgusting. The movie ends, I have nothing to do, I clean up the mess my brother has made in the house. And I start watching this '58 superbowl game on ESPN, kind of interesting. My mom comes down to say goodnight, I didn't really talk to her much and she seemed upset because I obviously am not being very loving towards her. I'm having Trevor, Ryan and Nick spend the night. Although it is already 10:30 and they won't be here for another 30 at least. I don't know why they are even spending the night. I hope they lift my mood. I really do. Michael had a birthday party. I didn't know about it. And I feel like I could have had a good time doing that but I didn't know about it. Instead I felt like blowing my brains out all afternoon. Not really. I'm not suicidal. I hope you had a better day than me, I really do, because I am so lost right now. I doubt any of this even made sense. Someone talk to me.

Thanks for listening, friend.
-Houston

War!

I watched Saving Private Ryan, and that is a very good movie. I also saw a lot of WWII documentaries on the History Channel. I also watched Survivor Man, and what a great show. I would like to live off the land for a little while. Call me an idiot for saying that, but its true, even if I'm just oblivious to how hard it is. I also thought of how I would have liked to be in WWII, subtracting the really high risk of dying. I feel like I would do good in a war, I believe I could be crafty and strategic. That raises the question of why I don't join the army, I just like the idea, without the risk of dying. That's all.

melancholy

For me, a good day has turned into a day I don't get depressed. I don't have too much to get depressed about in comparison to other people. But I guess its just me. I need to change.

November 30, 2008

I guess I'm just realizing how very weird people are. Everyone is. I'm also weird, I'm writing down all my thoughts on a blog, people could call that weird. You could call that weird.

I read a pretty good book on Friday and Saturday, I'm pretty proud I read it in pretty much one day. It was the perks of being a wallflower. Think what you will think, but I thought it was a good book. At a lot of points I could really relate with the (I guess you could say) protagonist, main character, whatever. Really good stuff. You should read it. Ask me if you would like to borrow my copy.

Christmas is coming near and to tell the truth I don't feel it. School is back in tomorrow, I haven't had the patience for Algebra and Chemistry lately. I don't have many things that I want for Christmas, I looked through amazon and found two books I want and that's it so far.

I want to do more exciting things, I could use some help with that. I don't know the ropes of excitement.

-Thoughtful

Problem

I wish I was naturally more interesting. I wish I knew what to do.

11-26-08

Just got back home from a cold bike ride. The cold was not too bothersome, I got over it. Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I'm going to my moms. I plan on getting some down time out at my moms the rest of the week. I've been staying at my dads, and he is out of town. So I've had the house to myself. Which is really awesome.

Today was pretty weird. I saw a guy running that looked almost naked, Mexican kids on a roof playing, Nick got hit by a car when we were on our bikes, and other weird things. Pretty cool though. I'm pretty tired, need new winter attire too. Nothing fits me right. I looked through my dads High School year book, Oak Ridge class of '79. Really interesting to me. People called him Hughey, Huey, Hue, Hugh, and some Houston. We have the same name in case you were wondering. Why don't people call me Hughey? I always get 'Houston we have a problem'. That's funny. I like it when people say that stuff to me, but most people think I would be annoyed of it.

Whatsup?

I haven't been on this lately. Although no one really reads it, so I guess it doesn't matter. I really enjoy writing in this thing. It's kind of like a diary. A public diary. So I don't post too personal of thoughts. But hey, its nice. I never separate my writing, it just kind of is all cluttered together, I like it. I am doing bad in Algebra II and Chemistry. They suck, but I am trying to pick up my pace in them. So wish me luck on that. I can't wait to get out of high school. I wish I knew where I really wanted to go to college. I don't want to stay in Orlando. Orlando is pretty nice, but I want to get away and live my life away from family. You know, become a man and all that. I got a harmonica and holder for it so now I can play harmonica with whatever instrument at the same time. And I am really fond of it. It makes things a bit more interesting. I have been interested in a lot more, folk-ish, I guess, music lately. So I've been trying to make stuff like that. It's pretty fun, I'm not taking it too seriously, I'm trying to write music like the song I Shall Be Free, I heard it through Bob Dylan, but I know he didn't write it, regardless, I really like his version. It's a pretty great song I think. Think what you will. Well I guess thats all I will write for today. Goodbye.

I never

Write in this anymore.

Neh 8-25-08

Nothing.

Chili 8-24-08

I made vegetarian chili today. It was alright but I defiantly need to work on my recipe, less eggplant and more kidney beans dude. Well back to school tomorrow! I've done all my homework so its no big deal though. Other than that I did nothing today. But its cool, I don't mind nothing. Larry King Live interviewed Bill Maher tonight when I was flipping through channels it caught my attention that he has made a movie about how ridiculous the concept of religion is. It's conveniently called Religulous like religious and ridiculous in one word, basically. Well it looks great, Someone needs to tell religious people how ridiculous their beliefs are, or at least how they practice them. That's all I have to say, later!

O Brother, Where Art Thou? 8-23-08

I didn't do much today. It was my mothers birthday. She was sick. I ran some errands for her. I was out at my moms so I didn't have any friends to hang out with. I watched O Brother, Where Art Thou? and boy, what a great movie. Then I played Call Of Duty 4, and boy, what a great game. Thats about all.

Average Day 8-22-08

No school today do to bad weather. I woke up early, watched TV then later on Trevor, Javed, and Nick came over then we went and saw The Rocker. Which was alright, it wasn't that funny, but decent. After wards we had Marcello practice which was nice. Then I went back out to my moms house. It was a pretty average day, not anything special. But its whatever, I don't need special days, I'm fine with average. That's basically it.

Weather 8-21-08

Well the weather today was worse than Tuesday and we still went to school. I didn't mind the rain much but it bothered a lot of people. There isn't any school tomorrow due to more bad weather. I hope the hurricane or tropical storm passes soon. I find it funny that my keyboarding teacher (Mr.Henderson) looks almost exactly like Tim from the Tim and Eric Awesome Show. I'm a week deep into being a vegetarian now. It hasn't been much of a challenge. I haven't really been having to force myself to not eat meat I just don't really think about it and I've tried a lot different food and eaten a lot healthier this past week. I think being a vegetarian was a good change. I feel that I'm kind of a boring person and that deeply upsets me. I hope I can change that because it really is depressing. Marcello(my band) hasn't practiced in a while and that is kind of upsetting. I'm honestly making much of an effort because I've been pretty lazy which I need to change. I like watching The Daily show with Jon Stewart and The Colbert Report they are pretty good, better than serious political news. I also like watching Scrubs. I ate pizza for dinner. Pizza rocks, I really love it. I guess that's about all I have to say, I'm going to go watch a movie now.

Trying this out

Well Kevin is doing this. So I thought I would give it a shot.

I'm going to try and write my daily thoughts.